Homeward.

It is strange how our souls get called to someplace or someone every once in a while.

Like a repeat of the same bus route you take from work to get home. With those 21 turns to the left and 26 to the right. With the 3 bridges that fly past above you when the bus drives underneath. Or the reflection of those lamps in the damp windows.

We sit there silently. Reminiscing about the puzzle in our heads. 

How overwhelming it is to feel anything at once after such a long time blocking everything completely. You feel strange and sick, cursed but blessed. Lost but found.

And everyday that goes by is another day in which we find ourselves sitting in the same chair, asking the same questions to our hearts.

I was lost. Now I'm found.

But, do I truly want to be found? My brain tells me I don't want this at the same time my heart pushes me forward into the dawn of uncertainty.

As I look out the window, I feel complete for an instance. Something unthinkable of achieving this year.

The sky now tainted purple with a yellow moon is being watched by a couple of black cats. Dawn is once again upon us. 

But this time it seems... different.

I was found, somehow.

Suddenly I fall from my chair and I spiral down into a black pit. An owl flies beside me for a while. I see the silhouette of a deer's horns behind a flash of white light. A cat of a thousand eyes watching me from the cornice of his window. The moon and the sun together from above. All falling with me in this fatal journey.

I don't scream. 

I just close my eyes and feel the wind move my hair and clothes. 

Then, I wake up. On the same chair. On the same bus. On the same route. 

The glass is tainted with dropplets of water coming from the clouds. Coloured by the light of a thousand traffic lights and lamps. 

I thought I was found; and maybe I am.

I'm just not home yet.

I'm returning slowly but steadily.

Passing underneath bridges, up and down. Illuminated by the glow of the night's aura. Turning left and right. So I can go home.

Finally;

Homeward.

-horus;